Chubby Cindy

Story of B & C - Almost 5 years later
Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Bearbear that is always with me when I am down

C tossed and turned on her bed, holding her little bolster tight in her chest while warm tears flowed down her cheeks.. 'Why can't i just learn to let go..?' she questioned herself..

B changed alot from the first time they were together till now.. Logically, C knew that it is time to move on.. But emotionally, she refused to let go as she loved him deeply.. Who in the right mind will take all this sufferings for so long? She just hoped he will change one day..

B's conversations were filled with sarcastic and nasty words.. Every word he said pierce right into her fragile heart.. Every time when they are together, B will criticise her, saying nasty words like 'Hey pig' or 'You have pig head, hands, legs, tummy & etc' or 'Why are other girls slim and not you?' To make matter worse, his family members make fun of her as well.. Calling her names and making her embarrassed talking about her size..

Till now, they hardly hold hands.. Not to say other actions that a normal couple should do like hugging or kissing.. Whenever C tries to hold his arm, he would brushed her off and say who would like to bring a pig out.. B would even bite, pinch, and beat her for fun while C cried in pain... Even when she cried, he won't care and would even get angry with her.. Not a caring word for B nor a gentle touch..

She knew she don't have to go through all these tortures but she chose to accept it.. Why? Because she still believes that he will know and learn to treasure her one fine day..

'when you have scar, you leave no chance for it to heal. but if you could somehow make yourself forget it was there, allow it to close up; it would slowly blend into your skin, never to be seen or hurt again'

--Cindy HAD a little rocket--

Get to know me better..

First impression that I will portray to others will either be i'm out-going or i'm super arrogant.. Why can it be so extreme? Let me tell you..

You can easily tell if i like a person from my face expression.. If i'm friendly to you means i think you are okie to be my friend.. If i don't even look or talk to you, it means i really don't like you.. If i don't look at you means you are very irritating or you are too handsome (guys only, cos i will be shy)..

The funny thing is, people whom i dislike during the first meeting, happen to turn out to be my close friends now.. Even my best friend, i totally dislike the idea of going out with her in a group during secondary school.. But now, we are best of friends..

My friends will say that i am happy-go-lucky, sporty, lively and easy going.. I am also noisy and crack jokes often.. A bubbly and cheeky individual who is also up to mischiefs and pranks.. One who can cheer you up when you are sad.. A shoulder for you to cry on.. Always ready to listen to all your complains and sorrows..

Many of you will see me as one who is career minded, goal driven and strong emotionally and mentally.. People around will think i'm always happy and problem-free.. Which is not.. I have my own problems in life, relationship, family, friends and work.. It is just that i don't like to share unhappy things.. The only unhappy thing that you would know is about my relationship because i really can't handle it anymore..

Wanna know the real me.. I'm not as noisy as what you think i should be.. I really love to have quiet time on my own.. Enjoy being in the nature.. Love the sea.. Enjoy travelling.. Love sports like netball, blading, water sports and extreme sports.. Something that i really wanted to fulfil before i die is to visit the 7 wonders of the world though now it's 6 as the Garden of Babylon no longer exist..

My dream is to be a good wife.. a loving mother.. A happy family with a caring husband.. To have a simple life.. I don't ask for fame or riches.. I only want happiness.. Though money can be important, it is not everything.. It's good to be wealthy but it's more important to be emotionally, mentally and physically healthy..

Everyone in this world want to have the best things in life.. But life is fair, if you have this, you will have to lose another.. If i can have both.. I am really blessed.. I know i'm blessed in other ways, i have a great family.. wonderful siblings, relatives, cousins and friends like you..

Thank you for coming into my life.. You have made my life story an interesting and meaningful one.. Every chapter will not complete without you.. I love you all..

'when you're in love, you only see yourself through that person's eyes and you want to be everything they want you to be, so they can love you and that you can breathe. when you see nothing in their eyes, you're nothing'

--Cindy HAD a little rocket--

Chubby Cindy

25 yrs old
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If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home

Boy, my love will get you home
Boy, my love will get you home

Chubby Cindy

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